for my own sanity. I'd rather stay in a hotel room and flash back all the good time I had with my mother.
My mother is a mirror for me, remind me what i shouldn't do in my relationship with my own child.
She is a controling type, however, everytime when I say "goodbye " to her, she'd look at me straight in eyes sadly says "i won't be able to see you again". After she passes a certain age, she thinks every time we meet is the last time.