天下没有完美的事情,也没有完美的人;没有完美的孩子,也没有完美的父母。你的问题是你自己造成的,不要怨父母。与其花那么多时间,看那么多书,写那么多帖,会那么多帖,还不如踏踏实实做下来做个步入中年的女人该做的事。
你说你的Ex们爱你时真爱你,弃你而去时也非常狠心。这是不是可以理解为你是个只适合date,不适合结婚的对象呢?你缺少进入婚姻的什么因素呢?这些外人无法回答,你得问你自己。
My point is that it is you who lived your life till now, not anybody else. As an adult, you need take the full responsibilities. There were many many situations in the past where you were the one to make decisions and you did. Now you realized you made some or all of them wrong. It is ok to look back and see why you made those wrong decisions. This is a very important step but not the most important one.
Sorry, I've got to go on a date. Talk to you later......