I know. I am trying to...

I used to think that I can improve the relationship.  Now I am not trying too hard...
I am just grateful that I am close with my kid.  She will always have a mother that truly loves her. 
I have yelled at my kid a few times in the past.  And every time I had regretted it.  I don't understand why my parents never felt any remorse. 
Honestly, when I think of my kid, she touches the most tender part of my soul.  I just think that she came to me as a little chunk of meat and totally trusted me.  How can I not love her?  If my daughter just has tears in her eyes, i soften right away.
That is why I don't understand why some parents behave the way they do.