You are very "shi zai". You would make a good friend in real life.
Do not take men too seriously. Make friends with men. Treat them with respect unless they treat you otherwise. If they do not contact you, move on. Given time and space, you will forget the current one.
I almost wanted to invite you to my house for Xmas last year after reading some of your posts late last year. But I did not want my teenager daughter to get upset, and of course I was not sure if you find the invitation too...
Trust me, you can be happy by yourself. I will write more some other time. Again, don't take men too seriously.