[美队] 50 感怀。

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Another Milestone in my Life

I just passed another milestone in my life a couple of month ago, although it was not something I looked forward to, much less something I wanted to celebrate. I had dreaded it for a whole year and was still in denial when I finally crossed the threshold. Nothing in the past had fully prepared me for that moment, not those once-inspiring self-help books and famous quotes, which, all of a sudden, seemed to become useless and meaningless to me.

I had no interest in getting older, or getting wiser or mellower for that matter. I felt resentful and helplessness when I noticed what happened to my physical being over the last decade, gray hair slowly and silently creeping upon me, the skin, I was once proudest of, literally turning from blemish-free peach skin to potato skin. The sad thing is that nothing else about my look will get any better or even stay the same in the future.

Turning 50 isn’t the end of world, but it was like a quantum leap transporting me to another dimension, and I had to reset my mind and shift my thinking completely. Facing yet another crossroad in my life, I asked myself: what is next? Shall I continue to work hard or to slow down to smell the roses? How will I spend my allotted time from now on? Shall I spend more time on maintenance, a vain attempt to turn back the clock, or on mental activities to fend off Alzheimer’s? Shall I continue to work on my English, even though I would probably never have the chance to deliver a speech to a large crowd or write a book that sells?

Trying to push those mind-boggling thoughts out of my mind, I watched several movies, including The Shawshank Redemption and Julie and Julia. I had watched those movies before, but this time I watched them with a fresh pair of eyes, sharpened by my newly acquired reading glasses. I had a few “light bulb” moments while watching them. These movies inspired and enlightened me in a new way. I was so touched by The Shawshank Redemption that I want to be like Andy Dufresne, the main character in the movie, to “get busy living”. I want to be like Julia Child in Julie and Julia, finding something I am passionate about and keeping tremendously interested in it till my ripe old age. And finally, I read Michael Cunningham’s novel The Hours with WenQing, which triggered an enlightening epiphany for me: the meaning of life is to live EVERY HOUR to the fullest, no matter how old you are, and the pleasure of life can be found in THE HOURS when you feel happy and satisfied, regardless of your age.

Yet another inspiration came to me a few days ago while walking with my friend and colleague on the new rubber track on the campus. It sure felt good to walk on a springy track, the sun shining softly and breeze blowing gently. My colleague is one year older than me, and we have been friends for over ten years, growing together professionally and personally. She told me that she just started to take guitar lessons as well as spend 15 minutes writing each day. She said she always wanted to learn how to play guitar and finally she has time to do it. She is a good writer, teaching Technical Writing, writing grants and papers, and editing her graduate students’ theses/dissertations on a daily basis, yet she still wants to keep improving her craft. She said that she does not want to lose her edge as she gets older. Her words struck a chord with me, because I was feeling that I was losing my edge to younger people with a creative mind, an eager spirit, and a new set of skills. The fact of life is: we either keep moving forward or we get left behind, like what the Red Queen said in Through the Looking-Glass: "It takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place." Yes, I will.

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新声写的好,共勉。 -yingyudidida- 给 yingyudidida 发送悄悄话 yingyudidida 的博客首页 yingyudidida 的个人群组 (140 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 05:45:59

Thanks! Bill. -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (424 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 06:35:38

茍日新,日日新,又日新 -走马读人- 给 走马读人 发送悄悄话 走马读人 的博客首页 走马读人 的个人群组 (103 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 06:05:00

if,then -走马读人- 给 走马读人 发送悄悄话 走马读人 的博客首页 走马读人 的个人群组 (909 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 06:08:33

Thank you! 走马读人. -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (537 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 06:29:35

Good thoughts on how to getting old. Cheers! -yuanxiang- 给 yuanxiang 发送悄悄话 yuanxiang 的博客首页 yuanxiang 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 07:19:27

Thanks! Yuanxiang. Cheers! -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 08:39:59

Sis, wow! -非文学青年- 给 非文学青年 发送悄悄话 非文学青年 的博客首页 非文学青年 的个人群组 (2434 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 07:38:36

Thanks! Sis. -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (2468 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 08:38:56

好精彩的文章呀,谢谢NewVoice分享。 -紫君- 给 紫君 发送悄悄话 紫君 的博客首页 紫君 的个人群组 (360 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 08:09:38

感动得不知道说什么。谢谢紫君! -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (1051 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 08:56:05

过奖了,不敢当。好幸运能和你及大家在美语坛相识交流,真是一种愉悦。 -紫君- 给 紫君 发送悄悄话 紫君 的博客首页 紫君 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 10:05:08

What a wonderful writing with great thoughts! -EnLearner- 给 EnLearner 发送悄悄话 EnLearner 的博客首页 EnLearner 的个人群组 (404 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 08:25:52

Welcome back! YuGong. -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (191 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 09:03:31

Great writing! -冲浪潜水员- 给 冲浪潜水员 发送悄悄话 冲浪潜水员 的博客首页 冲浪潜水员 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 08:53:56

谢谢冲浪! -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 09:04:25

sis NewVoice, you are so real and sincere. -同学小薇- 给 同学小薇 发送悄悄话 同学小薇 的博客首页 同学小薇 的个人群组 (413 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 10:12:44

Thank you! Xiaowei. -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (2252 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 15:44:14

年龄是相对的。 -ntotl- 给 ntotl 发送悄悄话 ntotl 的博客首页 ntotl 的个人群组 (278 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 10:17:14

共勉!永学。 -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (276 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 15:51:22

谢谢小曼!我生日已经过了。现在开始 dread 过下一个生日了。哈哈。。。 -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 15:54:06

Enjoy reading your reflections & soul-searching -作舟- 给 作舟 发送悄悄话 作舟 的博客首页 作舟 的个人群组 (412 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 11:58:34

Thank you! 作舟。 -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (737 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 15:55:58

So will I:) but first I need to climb back to the ground -whatday- 给 whatday 发送悄悄话 whatday 的个人群组 (436 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 12:59:54

Thanks! Whatday. -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (964 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 16:01:53

Great thought ! Thanks for sharing ! NewVoice. -wbqm- 给 wbqm 发送悄悄话 wbqm 的博客首页 wbqm 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/23/2013 postreply 19:59:16

vbqm, Thank you for reading it! -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/24/2013 postreply 04:13:09

热烈祝贺!祝声姐今年50,明年49岁生日快乐!!!从现在起,倒着过生日!!!:) -beautifulwind- 给 beautifulwind 发送悄悄话 beautifulwind 的博客首页 beautifulwind 的个人群组 (187 bytes) () 02/24/2013 postreply 00:03:01

谢谢美凤!看来我不仅曾经年轻过,将来也年轻。喜欢你的乐观! -NewVoice- 给 NewVoice 发送悄悄话 NewVoice 的博客首页 NewVoice 的个人群组 (0 bytes) () 02/24/2013 postreply 04:16:46

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