When I prepared for international portrait competition, you wished that I could win, I did not, partially because the judges have interest conflict... even only a little bit, but it gained recognition by a well known artist, so it is a victory. I was full of enthusiasm, aroused also by web friend's song of "the heroic sons and daughters", my spirit was like one of a soldier then.
Compare with that event which 3500 artists joined, my writing project is more glorious and the award is uncomparable, but I don't have that kind of passion. I should imagine that I am in an examination room, compete with 10,000 peers, I may hang a slogan with large characters like in China in the past, I should listen to that music again...
Yes, with passive character like me, I need to be whipped.
Also for the writing, I need to suppose if Yu and Yi add more notes on my ideas.
To sum up: journal, music,yoga,images, dayly reward/punishment and slogans.
PS ZT
儒家所说的“知耻近乎勇”的勇是勇于改过。这里把羞耻和勇敢等同起来，意思是要人知道羞耻并勇于改过是一种值得推崇，夸耀的品质。 后世影响
孔子“好学近乎知，力行近乎仁，知耻近乎勇”是儒家对知、仁、勇“三达德”的一种阐发。“知耻近乎勇”的意思是说常怀一颗羞耻之心，不仅可正身，养浩然之气，而且知进取，成千秋伟业，盖因知耻近乎勇也。 孟子曰：“人不可以无耻，无耻之耻，无耻矣。”从孔子“大道之行也，天下为公”到孟子“仰不愧于天，俯不怍于人”；从庄子“视死若生者，烈士之勇也”到屈原“闭心自慎，终不失过也”；从司马迁“君子盛德，容貌若愚”到诸葛亮“鞠躬尽瘁，死而后已”；从欧阳修“富贵不染其身，利害不移其守”到范仲淹“先天下之忧而忧，后天下之乐而乐”……无一不是心系社稷的嘉德懿行。反之，那些少廉寡耻之人，如暴虐无道的夏桀商纣，陷害忠良的秦桧，口蜜腹剑的李林甫，贪赃枉法的和珅之徒，哪个不是遗臭万年？
古语有云，知人者智，自知者明。自知不仅要了解自身的优点，还要了解自身的耻辱所在。这对个人至关重要，对国家和民族更是有着深远的影响。
实际事例
只有“知耻”，才能唤起洗刷耻辱、捍卫尊严的勇气，激发出改造自我与社会的巨大力量，从而战胜脆弱、委琐与渺小，为自我、群体乃至国家、民族赢得伟大与光荣。
文学巨匠鲁迅，正是为“灵魂中有毒气和鬼气”而感到羞耻，所以才“无情面地解剖自己”，“月月时时自己和自己战”，成为“空前的民族英雄”。共产党员孔繁森正是因为“阿里的贫穷，就是我们的耻辱”，
马克思曾指出：“耻辱就是一种内向的愤怒”，“耻辱本身已经是一种革命”，“如果整个国家真正感到了耻辱，那它就会像一只蜷伏下来的狮子，准备向前扑去”。蒙受百年耻辱、进行百年抗争的中华民族，对这一真理的感知和理解尤为深刻。针对今日之国情，胡锦涛主席提出新时代的荣辱标准--“八荣八耻”，解析了真伪、善恶、美丑，澄清了是非。这一社会主义荣辱观，.
陈寅恪说过：士大夫无耻，是为国耻。为了我们的明天,就让历史的耻辱永远鲜活于我们的记忆！
