Chinese people/women, please first take care of yourself, and then your son, your hu*****and.Please first live for yourself, then the kids or the parents.I can't believe that a well educated people like you still live like an old fashioned Chinese woman.
Sometimes, I think some Chinese are born with the gene(thanks to the thousands of years of Chinese history) that has to be tortured/abused by somebody, it's in their blood. They can not live a life with freedom or space, otherwise, they will feel bored. They love dramas.
You have options - get out and have a life, in stead of thinking of being a murderer or driving yourself crazy.
Get out ASAP. Don't think too much, unless you enjoy all the drama. The world will not end with divorce.
