sugesstions:
1. appolygize to your wife from bottom of your heart, good luck with that, I am not sure she would forgive you, you are the one broked the trust
2. go to see a conselor to talk about your problems, you have so many of them I don't even know where to start, I bet your wife has more to say
3. grow up, sounds like you are still in your teens, you need to change if you want to keep your marriage, good luck with that too