my update (brain tumor now) & tks thebay's message last month

First thanks for thebay to write a message in the forum last month. I meant to write something after the Thanksgiving but didn't get the chance. Anyway, my situation seems stable and I almost get a fake thought 假像 that I would be doing fine and live seems to stay on for a bit (more normal life). I do my regular blood test and regular follow up Dr appointment. The blood test marker is low and it may not has relapse in the body. Though starting last week, I have been having constant headaches and that bother me a lot. I never experience headaches that never goes away. Sometimes the headaches are stronger and sometimes it's lighter. I can't read for a longer time or I will feel dizzy even if I am reading my favorite book.

I had a brain MRI 2 days ago and they found mutiple lesions in my brain. That's the cancer than get metastisize up there and the pressure there probably cuase my headaches. They said the chemo may work well on my body but not the brain. It's just a bomb right now though I know it would be happening anytime but then it was couple months that my condition was stable and I am starting to have the 假像. :( Anyway, I just hope the headaches will go away (or milder) soon and hope the radiation therapy will be successful. There are things I need to prepare/do soon before my situation get worse. I heard about the side-effect on the brain tumor and whole brain radiation though I hope my memory won't go away too soon/too fast (i.e. if I am still alive).

Now, I can't do much but lead to God's hand and try my best to go on to search for the Dr/therapy to ease my symptom/treat the tumor. If the tumor is untreated, the Dr said I may have 6-8 weeks (online research seems to say 1 month) . I don't remember to ask him about the life expectancy if the therapy goes well (maybe up to 6 months?). Anyway, I know they will say it depends on the individual though I thought it's good to have an idea about the median (and range) statistic figure as a realistic reference so I can have some planning.

I can't seems to be able to read too long or get online for long nowadays because of my headaches. If anyone find the related article/links or figures, please let me know.

yeah, I guess I 最放不开的就是儿子. He is 3.5 years old only and I know he will have his own faith and God will lead him through. But someimes I just can't help and think of him. Will he still remember me when he grow up? A vague memory? Sigh...like thebay said, 能活著真的挺幸福的。希望大家珍惜一切 when you still have it. Eat heathy, do exerice, enjoy life, don't wait till you are sick. I wish I will still be around for my son's 4 year-old birthday in June or my 34 birthday in August (maybe too much to ask?). May the lord give me strength and peace. Please pray for me. Thank you.

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• God bless! Wish you and your family all the best! -xux- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 17:25:34

• 你先别着急.给Stonypoint和"有病不要愁"大姐QQH.他们虽然在东部, -闽姑- ♀ (428 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 17:40:52

• 被闽姑妹妹点名，给kkmama一点信息 -有病不要愁- ♀ (549 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 18:35:48

• 谢谢大姐姐!谢谢您和大S医生的支持!好人一生平安!祝大家健康! -闽姑- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 18:42:45

• Thank you. -kkmama- ♀ (265 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 19:52:27

• check your QQH -mickey222- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 19:03:05

• I cried. 但我突然想起来我又一次问我的医生我说不会死在 -thebay- ♀ (42 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 19:07:48

• 为你祈祷，祝你平安，给儿子和你自己过无数个欢快的生日，坚持，永不放弃。 -Novermber- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 19:57:41

• 佩服你的坚强！坚持，妹妹，放疗会有帮助的。为你祝福祈祷！ -bekindandnice- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 20:00:39

• you will be ok - brain mets won't kill you! -jaydad- ♂ (771 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 20:12:06

• kkmama姐姐，我们一起为您祈祷！佩服您的勇气，加油！ -童语- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 20:32:09

• Belive in God. I will prey for you. -小谋- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 21:17:50

• 祝福！ -SCAL- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 22:03:49

• 你的心态很好，佩服！绝对有助于你战胜病痛。为你祝福！ -TBz- ♂ (0 bytes) () 01/14/2010 postreply 23:13:29

• kkmama, 谢谢你给我们的启示：无惧病苦，热爱生命！祝福你！ -lily7- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 00:49:17

• prayed for you... -有点痛的说- ♀ (318 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 07:17:34

• you can do some plans now. -willows- ♀ (881 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 07:35:45

• Thanks -kkmama- ♀ (428 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 14:57:01

• 祝福! -我爱青菜- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 07:49:04

• Pray for you. Wish you the best! -xuexing- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 07:53:43

• My heart and prayer goes to you and your family. You son will re -ahbma- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 09:18:57

• you & family are in my prayers.. be strong.. -pega- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 09:25:38

• Just went to the chapel on campus to pray for you. -东大街- ♂ (129 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 10:37:45

• 为你祈祷和祝福！我们的生命都在神的手上，无论是生是死，健康疾病，他的爱一直与我们同在。 -lalala9- ♀ (142 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 11:21:28

• Stay strong!!! 最好seek second opinion。 能否避免WBR? -bewitched- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 12:35:58

• 能否避免WBR? Maybe hard -kkmama- ♀ (241 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 14:45:16

• 可以问一下你的父母或in-law现在美国吗? -闽姑- ♀ (523 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 17:03:48

• 回复：可以问一下你的父母或in-law现在美国吗? No -kkmama- ♀ (889 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 17:23:53

• 给你的医生打电话.若没有他的24/7紧急电话时,记得问他要. -闽姑- ♀ (436 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 17:49:23

• 多保重。为了自己为了家人，一定要有信心。 -bewitched- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 21:28:35

• 心里很痛，为你祷告。 -单翅蝴蝶- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 15:39:22

• 我儿子和你儿子一样大,亲爱的妹妹,不要放弃,你还年轻, -记住密码- ♀ (30 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 18:25:24

• information on 中医师 -东大街- ♂ (164 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 18:57:32

• 主与你同在。 -zhao04- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 19:39:44

• 妹妹要挺住，坚强！为你祷告！祝你平安！ -甜姐- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/15/2010 postreply 20:07:39

• 回复：my update (brain tumor now) & tks thebay's message last month -Dreambuilder- ♀ (22 bytes) () 01/17/2010 postreply 14:00:15

• 上天会保佑你的！！！ -siyatoua- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/18/2010 postreply 10:16:51

• Good luck! hope you will be fine -osbkelly- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/20/2010 postreply 21:03:20