My hu*****and and I are both graduate students in us, with about $2000 of monthly income. Our income is not good, plus my hu*****and is a big fun of camera, an expensive habbit, we are always live in the short of money. We are now in a vacation to florida, and to save some money, we have only one meal per day. For the rest of the days, we have some homemade bread and homemade cookies.
Tonight is Christmas eve, so we decided to have a "big night". We had a good dinner in a cubean reastaurant. We even spent the night in a bar, having some drinks, which is the first time for us for the five years living in us. The bar provided hot dancing, and my hu*****and was pretty arosed, that he wanted to go back to hotel to have sex. There is a shuttle bus from the bar and our hotel, but it took a while. Hurry as my hu*****and was, he insisted taking a cab. It took us a whole $20 dollars. Then I was so angry about his money wasting activity that I refused him touching me.
Now he is sleeping alone, sadly. And I am sleepless. I feel sorry ruin such a wonderful night. But on the other hand, I still feel uncomfortable that 20 dollars were wasted. I know I'm cheap. The trip in florida is way more expensive than I'd expacted, and we are under pressure of money....
Now I need some advise. I know I shouldn't punish him by sex, and I'm sorry ruin the night. But how can I get rid of the feeling that when I am working so hard to save some money, by cooking everyday, never eating outside in our town, and making all bread and sources by myself, and he just simply drank for $20, and take a cab for another $20 while bus asked for only $1.
Now I feel even worse. I'm a cheap person, and I'm mean to my hu*****and..... y