My 4 year old say he loves us both. My 14 year old

says you guys will reconcile again soon. It's always like that. I don't know. Today I asked about abortion's procedure and then asked him about his opinion. He didn't say anyting. I think he believes it's going to be the honeymoon period again. I think he wants to keep the baby. I told him last week I wouldn't have abortion even if I have to raise her up myself. But after reading so many friends' posts, I want to get it done because sooner or later, he'll blow up again. But I just can't make this tough decision to kill a life. I saw some pictures of unborn babies at this stage today when I tried to search some information and they made me feel so guilty. I don't know what to do. My doctor will call me tomorrow regarding the referral. His clinic doesn't handle it all. I felt the health insurane people and the nurse became unfriendly when I asked them about terminating the pregnancy. It is against God's will.