xxx。Tell us about your engagement with a topic or idea that excites you. Why are you drawn to it? (250 words or fewer)
A tower teeters on my bedside table, a cacophony of colorful spines thick and thin. They are all presents from my father, ranging from Steven King Novels, to highly inaccurate Greek mythology, to a knot-tying manual that I‘m proud to say I’ve read cover to cover. Yet there is only one book I’ve read three times. It opens: Would you like to know how the universe began? And then: We have no idea.
From those four words, I was hooked. In the course of a week, one page turned into two, then twenty, then a hundred. Enrapt, I devoured each chapter, my mind an insatiable itch. I laughed at the jokes in the footnotes, pondered over philosophical questions, puzzled over general relativity. Soon enough I had reached the back cover, my mind a whir of information. Concepts of space-time, dark matter, string theory. Oxymorons like “evaporating black holes” and “repulsive gravity.” As I learned more and more about how the universe worked, and how much remained a mystery, my eyes opened to an infinitely larger worldview than I’d known before, one of stars that race away from us and tiny particles that pass through our molecules every second. In our vast and unknowable universe, I’ve never felt so small. Yet it is small in the best way possible, because it means that there is a banquet of knowledge to discover.
I record the questions and contradictions in my heart, and dream of learning the answers.