There was a attitude of 车到山前总有路的 at that time, and there is always a assumption of maybe not be that bad to me in the deep of my mind, such as "the kid might get fellowship", the kid might not "go to that expensive school"....etc.
But now, only two years and half years left. It is very clear what we can push and what we can't and the bank account's grow is as predictable as the best of my optimism.
At the end, the check needs to be written. It is as clear as 1 2 3...
I can't say those word anymore, because if I do, I am only fooling myself and my kid.
...:):)