my feeling

I missed my period this Monday, I guess I am pregnant again, that is what I always want. But just can’t be happy. This past Monday, my hu*****and lost his job. The company let him go without any explanation according to him. He did not give me any information about his laid off.

Last night, I found out that he was unfaithful again. The first time I found out when I was pregnant with my first child. And this time, he cheated with his boss. He never stops cheating.

I have been very forgiving and tolerant about what he has done in the past because I thought about my daughter. In her life, she needs both of us. I want her to grow up happily. I did not tell anyone, and kept it to myself.

Last night, I called my parents and let them know what happened. I knew that I should not have done that, but this time I need support from my family. They told me to make a decision about my life, my daughter, and this unborn baby. It is only half a month old, but I don’t want to give it up…

My hu*****and has not been giving me and the family any happiness, but only painful memories.

I really don’t want to make any decisions, my brain is not functional now. He does not want to divorce. But this is not the life I want. He just could not give us a simple life at all.

If I keep the marriage, I know that I definitely keep the baby. But I am afraid about the future, it would be better for them? I don’t know how long I can endure it…

If I don’t keep the marriage, I know that I have to make choice about this baby.

It is very painful….

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• 你LG是老美吗？要是，贴跨坛去吧。那的JM对处理跟老美的关系比较有经验。换我有了孩子还是想要生下来的。一个是带，两个也是带。 -篱笆08- ♀ (120 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:27:20

• 回复：你LG是老美吗？要是，贴跨坛去吧。那的JM对处理跟老美的关系比较有经验。换我有了孩子还是想要生下来的。一个是带，两个也是带 -AACZ- ♀ (82 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:35:27

• Hug, I can understand that. But please separate your children -篱笆08- ♀ (159 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:45:24

• thanks. I need the hug... I feel I am not that strong as I was -AACZ- ♀ (6 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:55:59

• 你的宝宝们就是你最大的财富。They will make you strong. -篱笆08- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:58:42

• 习惯性出轨是无可救药的。离吧，长痛不如短痛。 -翡翠湖- ♀ (349 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 08:26:50

• according to your sentence: My husband has not been giving me an -蛀牙小虫子- ♀ (158 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:29:25

• 回复：according to your sentence: My husband has not been giving me -AACZ- ♀ (155 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:37:19

• 回复：my feeling -catyh- ♀ (244 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:30:11

• 回复：回复：my feeling -AACZ- ♀ (161 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:40:09

• He cheated on his wife but didn't know what he did wrong? -plusplus- ♀ (40 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 09:12:32

• 一个孩子和两个孩子离婚有区别吗 -猪猪猪- ♀ (20 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:41:10

• 离了吧，除了开始有点lonely，别的都会比现在强。 -如蓝- ♀ (744 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:48:04

• Thanks. I try not to cry at work... -AACZ- ♀ (421 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 08:06:07

• No you are not weak at all after you've done so much for -plusplus- ♀ (196 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 09:16:45

• divorce is better choice if your husband doesn't change -poohma- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:48:18

• 你想好,生下来是给自己,不是给婚姻的~~给你女儿一个伴儿也是不错的 -小小巧克力豆- ♀ (37 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 07:52:10

• 这个,没解. -Rachael- ♀ (163 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 08:22:00

• 另外，无论如何，肚子里的孩子还是要生下来。 -翡翠湖- ♀ (22 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 08:29:02

• You are absolutely right. -aacz- ♀ (76 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 08:48:46

• 长痛不如短痛。你还年轻，对自己也好点儿。 -好宝宝- ♂ (168 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 08:44:48

• 回复：长痛不如短痛。你还年轻，对自己也好点儿。 -AACZ- ♀ (360 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 08:59:53

• Thanks -AACZ- ♀ (265 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 09:04:14

• Take care! May God Bless you and your babies. -篱笆08- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 09:11:10

• Good luck! -plusplus- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 09:18:43

• Good luck and best wishes to you and your family -秋月冬雪- ♀ (0 bytes) () 01/07/2010 postreply 09:20:04