I embrance, and I treasure this opportunity to see the world, and live as we do now.
我也很怀念所有小时候的温馨，和父母殷殷的期冀，和青山绿水。越怀念， 我就越批判。In this world, and this life of us, it is my religion that in order to live the most as a human, one needs to be brave, honest, warm, couragoues, curious, love what you do, having perspetive, spend quality time with people you love (by which I mean, not just 买名牌包）, close to nature, appreciate nature, with humor. have compassion etc etc etc. None of this comes if all you want from life is to comare yourself to your neighbor, and see who has more 名牌包.
thanks for sharing the story. sometimes, I can feel the the toxic leftovers in my feelings. I try to purify them by praying, to "the neon god that they made".
