Same here

I have very similar experience as yours. I have the same feeling of humn relationship. I messed up lots of times and got hurt in each time.

In this sense, I told myself that I would brought up my kids on my own no matter how difficult it is. So far, I am doing fine with my son. hopefully in next two years, I may have a daughter.

For anyone who read this post, please do not let you child far away from you... It does hurt deeply...