回复：问题不在于他是谁,以后或以前的生活如何,问题是我的生活,以后会如何

right, which probably means subconsciously you knew nothing will happen. you shouldn't blame yourself too much, i believe what had happened, happened for a reason, and there was a casue of thing had happened

if you still want your marriage, go back to it's root, work on the relationship itself

good luck, all the best!