'say you love me, say you are my woman'

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He whispers next to my ear.
"say you love me".
" I love you".
"say you are my woman"
"i am your woman".

but i am not your woman. i am my own woman.


From the depth of his eyes, i see the sparkle of tears. but he did not cry.all these years he only cried twice, for me, for us.
when i just met him, i was such a kid.
He said--" i never cry" and i said--"i will surely make you cry".He laughed hard, and remembered it as a joke( of me) .
Of course he cried for me. but i cried for him for so many times, i feel that my tears are dried out.


" you know, all these years, i saw your change, " he said--" before you make a big change, you always would experiance a long time of pain."
"yes, you are right. that pain was too long".
"then, once you change, you will never come back. and you will be happy."
"that's so right". a big smile comes up, i feel as if i am listening to my heart.
Who else would know me this well in this world?

Yes i am so happy now.
Somebody asked me, what on earth do i want ( from a man)??
what do i want? i asked myself.
I want love as a breeze of spring. no weight, no possession.
I will have no expectation from him, and he would have no expectation from me.
I only want happiness from love, no tears, no pain.

I know i am hurt deeply.
But i also had moved on and made the big change.
I am ready to find out about myself. i am ready to see the world again.

women tend to take man as their biggest decoration, without figuring out what they really want for themselves.
I use to believe men mean the door to the world. i envy their power, their intelligence. their cruity.
So i took a man of intelligence as my decoration.
it was when  i had taken his happiness as my happiness, his pain as my pain, i start to realize i lost myself.
then i lost him. then he lost me.

even now, we feel like family, we feel like friends, sometimes, we even feel like lovers like before,  i will never go back to my craziness to him and to a love affair.
until i got back my courage...to the world of passion.
right now i am so tired.

I know, for me,
it is hard to not wanting to pocess a man i like. but i try.

I will keep telling myself--
If you love somebody, set him free.





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    三年前的旧文。。。 -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:05:01

    回复:三年前的旧文。。。 -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (107 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:14:38

    虽然我有意见,还是读了每一个词。。。 -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:09:06

    有意见就说。i am listening. -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (93 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:17:06

    自我保护意识太弱。人要像光一样:波粒二象。不能一根筋。 -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:19:31

    爱还自我保护?顾不上那末多。 -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (81 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:24:51

    就是说要又能投入,又能不被伤害。是不是?你将来能吗?我一直能。 -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:22:08

    还没有练成金钟罩铁布衫的功夫。只会装酷。 -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:26:31

    总对同事说:“人,不该在同一个坑里摔两跤。。。” -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:29:30

    所以我才问自己为什么?? -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:31:10

    你具有很多男性的优质,但缺乏波粒二象性。可以当肖邦,但成不了贝多芬。 -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:36:26

    回复:你具有很多男性的优质,但缺乏波粒二象性。可以当肖邦,但成不了贝多芬。 -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (36 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:42:52

    呵呵,你想听别人夸。你有以下男生的优质: -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (238 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:49:45

    谢谢夸。明白一点你说的 -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (102 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 06:56:37

    是天质。肖邦不可能是贝多芬。不过,哪天我专门写个帖子 -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (43 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 07:02:27

    好。 -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 07:09:49

    Have a good day! -阿里- 给 阿里 发送悄悄话 阿里 的博客首页 (21 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 07:11:58

    U 2. -bambooseven- 给 bambooseven 发送悄悄话 bambooseven 的博客首页 (0 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 07:15:02

    我感觉男女说的“set free”意义不同,感觉男人要是真正喜欢一个女人,其实是很喜欢 -fpxjz- 给 fpxjz 发送悄悄话 fpxjz 的博客首页 (354 bytes) () 09/19/2011 postreply 19:17:53

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