taoui:this is just my job.
最近，心不是很静。有一点焦虑。
尤其是今天工作的时候，有一点厌倦的想法。
我试图挖掘自己的内心深处。是什么原因。
我想，或许是原来自己太志得意满。
以为爱自己的人尽在掌握。
当我的内心有一点患得患失时，觉得人生如此灰烬。
一直以来，我试图把自己阳光积极的一面SHOW给大家。
可是我真的有足够坚强吗？
我真的能带给人们我的正面的能量吗？
一个星期四的下午，C来到我工作的店里，送给我一朵白色玫瑰。
心疼了一下。此时。
友谊！ R笃定地说。
听到后，我的心淡淡失望。
刚又GOOGLE了一下，宁愿相信，它曾经是纯洁天真的爱。
如何，让我能对一切都不入心。
如何，万花丛中过，片叶不沾身的境界，只有快乐，没有烦恼。
我的心还是疼了那么一小下。
C，没做错过什么。
一个按摩女孩和一个有私人飞机的音乐家的丈夫，妄谈友谊，都是可笑。遑论所谓“纯洁的爱”呢？
你有过心微微疼痛的感觉吗？
它像是揪在一起，再无力放手。
我听到他说去找另外一个女孩按摩，做为送给她的生日礼物。
只是淡淡说：那么，不要再找我。
占有欲？不肯分享欲？抑或是不适合年龄的小委屈？嗔念？
可笑的感触。说过之后，我的心竟然会疼痛。多可笑的感受，我入戏了？我是不是应该照照镜子，看看我是谁？ 中国话叫：踩鼻子上脸。给脸不要脸。或者，还有很多词汇：心比天高，命比纸薄，之类。
动感情的工作，你能做多久？你能入戏多深，你能服务多少人？你能不能把这个工作真正做好？你的根基才有多浅，竟然拿着鸡毛当令箭了。
我的理想是：有一份体面的工作，买一套体面的房子，过一份体面的生活。
“情”，岂非是最贱的东西。
我试图挖掘如何能把工作做好，如何成为一个TOP的按摩师。
在1个小时之内，投入爱情给我的工作以及客人。在1个小时之内，再完整收回。不惹尘埃。
像我跟BOB,JIM说的那样： 我对所有人都这样，这只是我的工作。你没有特别。
我贱也好，贵也好，讨好你也好，暧昧你也好。没有分别，这只是我的工作。
Recently, my heart is not very quiet. A little anxiety.
Especially in today's work, a little tired.
I tried to look into my own heart. What's wrong with me.
I think perhaps I had been too proud, but for nothing.
Can I control all love I get?
When my heart feel a little about the outcome, does life like ashes?
I have always tried to show everyone my own positive side,
but am I really strong enough?
Can I really bring my positive energy to people?
A Thursday afternoon, C came to my work place, gave me a white rose.
Distressed a bit. at this time.
Friendship! R said with conviction.
After hearing that, my heart was disappointed a little bit.
I checked on GOOGLE, preferring to believe that it was pure and innocent love.
How, can I put everything out of my heart?
How, can I get that realm: after enjoy million flowers , none stick to yourself even piece of leaves,
how can I only get happiness, no worries?
My heart still hurts a little bit.
C, did nothing wrong.
A massage girl and a private airplane's owner, a musician's hu*****and, make friendship alone, is ridiculous. Not to mention the so-called "pure love" ！
Have you ever had a slight heart pain feeling?
It's like pulling together, and then has to let go.
I heard he said he went to see another girl for a massage, as a birthday present of hers.
I said: So, don't back to see me again.
Possessive? Would not want to share? Or is it small grievances but not age-appropriate ? Anger read?
Funny feeling. my heart went so far as pain after that. More funny feeling,
I fell into a play? Should I look in the mirror and see who I am? In Chinese sayings, they called: step nose to face, Alternatively, there are many words: heart is higher to sky, life is thinner than paper.
.Emotional work, how long can you do? How far can you go, how many people can you serve?
Can you really make this work? You have more shallow roots, even holding a feather as the authority arrow?
My ideal is: a decent job, buy a decent house, had a decent life.
"Love", does that mean the cheapest thing in the ideal???
I should try my best to research how to become a TOP masseur.
In 1 hour, put my love into my work and clients and recover. Do not mess with a dust.
Like I told BOB, JIM, I said: I treat all clients like this, this is just my job. you are not special.
Whether I am cheap or I am expensive, whether I please you, or ambiguous you,
No difference, this is just my job.
尤其是今天工作的时候，有一点厌倦的想法。
我试图挖掘自己的内心深处。是什么原因。
我想，或许是原来自己太志得意满。
以为爱自己的人尽在掌握。
当我的内心有一点患得患失时，觉得人生如此灰烬。
一直以来，我试图把自己阳光积极的一面SHOW给大家。
可是我真的有足够坚强吗？
我真的能带给人们我的正面的能量吗？
一个星期四的下午，C来到我工作的店里，送给我一朵白色玫瑰。
心疼了一下。此时。
友谊！ R笃定地说。
听到后，我的心淡淡失望。
刚又GOOGLE了一下，宁愿相信，它曾经是纯洁天真的爱。
如何，让我能对一切都不入心。
如何，万花丛中过，片叶不沾身的境界，只有快乐，没有烦恼。
我的心还是疼了那么一小下。
C，没做错过什么。
一个按摩女孩和一个有私人飞机的音乐家的丈夫，妄谈友谊，都是可笑。遑论所谓“纯洁的爱”呢？
你有过心微微疼痛的感觉吗？
它像是揪在一起，再无力放手。
我听到他说去找另外一个女孩按摩，做为送给她的生日礼物。
只是淡淡说：那么，不要再找我。
占有欲？不肯分享欲？抑或是不适合年龄的小委屈？嗔念？
可笑的感触。说过之后，我的心竟然会疼痛。多可笑的感受，我入戏了？我是不是应该照照镜子，看看我是谁？ 中国话叫：踩鼻子上脸。给脸不要脸。或者，还有很多词汇：心比天高，命比纸薄，之类。
动感情的工作，你能做多久？你能入戏多深，你能服务多少人？你能不能把这个工作真正做好？你的根基才有多浅，竟然拿着鸡毛当令箭了。
我的理想是：有一份体面的工作，买一套体面的房子，过一份体面的生活。
“情”，岂非是最贱的东西。
我试图挖掘如何能把工作做好，如何成为一个TOP的按摩师。
在1个小时之内，投入爱情给我的工作以及客人。在1个小时之内，再完整收回。不惹尘埃。
像我跟BOB,JIM说的那样： 我对所有人都这样，这只是我的工作。你没有特别。
我贱也好，贵也好，讨好你也好，暧昧你也好。没有分别，这只是我的工作。
Recently, my heart is not very quiet. A little anxiety.
Especially in today's work, a little tired.
I tried to look into my own heart. What's wrong with me.
I think perhaps I had been too proud, but for nothing.
Can I control all love I get?
When my heart feel a little about the outcome, does life like ashes?
I have always tried to show everyone my own positive side,
but am I really strong enough?
Can I really bring my positive energy to people?
A Thursday afternoon, C came to my work place, gave me a white rose.
Distressed a bit. at this time.
Friendship! R said with conviction.
After hearing that, my heart was disappointed a little bit.
I checked on GOOGLE, preferring to believe that it was pure and innocent love.
How, can I put everything out of my heart?
How, can I get that realm: after enjoy million flowers , none stick to yourself even piece of leaves,
how can I only get happiness, no worries?
My heart still hurts a little bit.
C, did nothing wrong.
A massage girl and a private airplane's owner, a musician's hu*****and, make friendship alone, is ridiculous. Not to mention the so-called "pure love" ！
Have you ever had a slight heart pain feeling?
It's like pulling together, and then has to let go.
I heard he said he went to see another girl for a massage, as a birthday present of hers.
I said: So, don't back to see me again.
Possessive? Would not want to share? Or is it small grievances but not age-appropriate ? Anger read?
Funny feeling. my heart went so far as pain after that. More funny feeling,
I fell into a play? Should I look in the mirror and see who I am? In Chinese sayings, they called: step nose to face, Alternatively, there are many words: heart is higher to sky, life is thinner than paper.
.Emotional work, how long can you do? How far can you go, how many people can you serve?
Can you really make this work? You have more shallow roots, even holding a feather as the authority arrow?
My ideal is: a decent job, buy a decent house, had a decent life.
"Love", does that mean the cheapest thing in the ideal???
I should try my best to research how to become a TOP masseur.
In 1 hour, put my love into my work and clients and recover. Do not mess with a dust.
Like I told BOB, JIM, I said: I treat all clients like this, this is just my job. you are not special.
Whether I am cheap or I am expensive, whether I please you, or ambiguous you,
No difference, this is just my job.
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