get up and stand up for your right!

You have been abused and he made your feel you deserved it. It's wrong, but it is a delicate situation to handle. You don't want to correct the wrong at the expense of your relationship, nor would you want the relationship with the abuse going on. I would recommend you to seek professional advices if the issue cannot be solved with inside the family. There are plenty of organizations out there with the expertise in addressing domestic abuse and violence against women. Good luck!