My very frustrated dating story, What should I do now? Move on o

sorry about english typing, My company's computer can't type chinese very well, I had too use english.... I rather write everything in chinese because I feel I can express much better....

失恋10天了， 没想到 两个月半的恋情结束 ( He dumped me) 让我如此frustrated. and feeling of loss something very important in my life.


so, I met him about 3 month ago, first time I see him I like him right the way, 他1米8， 金发蓝眼， 个性有点 full of himself. but I like it, I am single mom of baby girl, and he is single. but he say he wanted to date single mom because he is 34 and if he can't find right women to marry he rather adapter a kid, so why not date a single mom since he doesn't mind adapting. I said fine. but I might only want one more kid and I am not in hurry, and he really wanted to have kids on his own and as soon as possible.

we see each others twice a week or so , one saturday he came hang out with me and my friends, and we had little arguement, he called me to apologize, next Tuesday he cook a dinner and bake some cookie for me, and ask why I have never mention he as Boy friend to my friends, and I say you have never ask me to be your girl friend, he say he would feel ashame of asking me to be his girl friend because we already dating exclusively . i think he got upset that night, but at end he say he loves me, and I was in shock. ( we only know each others 2 month) I wasn't expecting anyone say it too soon. I just say you are cute, he got hurt and wanted to cry.

he did not iniciated contact with me for next 3 days, and saturday I iniciated contact with him and went over to his place and we had ok time, ( we had 6 time sex by then but only once he was able to come...) coz he is not very familiar with condom and he can't feel much without me being on top. I am not good on top. my legs get tired.

anyway , sunday he send me a txt say we are not good fit , that we should end, I called him. I told him I love him too , and he change his mind right the way ask me to foget about what he say, and stop by his place and have a dinner with his mom and step dad. we had good time.

wednesday we went out for a movie date, and following saturday, i went over to his place, had dinner and sex again , still he can't come and when he put condom on, he went soft after just couple minutes.  i can hear his frustration when he was at shower.

again i went home sunday and i can feel from txt he's having some confusing time, monday night I had to call him, and he told me he need some space and he contact his therapist and ask me if i will pick up his phone after 1 month, i told him, I would anytime and if my absense can make him feel better i will disapare ( Of course, want's my choice, he was dumping me on the phone) it hurts so bad.

anyway, has been 10 days and every morning i woke up feeling something is missing in my life, and thinking whats the real reason he broke up with me? because if is just sex with condom, we could both go for a blood check and i can take the pill. or there is a lot different kid of condom he can try , there is so many way we can correct the problem. also I did told him i love him too before we broke up.

I keep wondering what I did wrong and why he didn't want to work things out?

I have a online profile which was taken down after he ask me to be exclusive with him, i put it right back after we broke up, and he didn't put his profile back , has been 10 days already, I never hear anything from him, sometime i can't help feeling I have depression  , and need a closure, should I ask him to talk to me for one more time? or should I let it go? I am just afraid without closure I can't let it go, I am already feeling confused and frastrated everyday. and I don't know whats my problem or what should i do?

I keep wondering I wanted to call him and text him to just be his friend and just to try to work on the sex problem. because is really not something that I can't acomplished after ask my female and male friend about what I can try. is really not big deal to me.

Altho my profile is still online but I feel like I can't date others , my heart is not in it until I get over with him, might be I really love him? and might be I just can't over with the feeling that I failed on sex? i don't know what happen to me, I just feel sad and frustrated everyday when I wake up feeling of alone and check my phone and of course there is no text or miss call from him...

I probly shound't talk about sex on here, but is the one the main factor that we go throught with, so I had to mention it...