苦痛而纠结的老萨

11/30/2018 10:46 PM Larry → Jeffrey: You were good. Thought if u didn't know that we had been a couple she gave it away w familiarity and barbed comments. Think for now I'm going nowhere with her except economics mentor. I think I'm right now in the seen very warmly in rear view mirror category. She did not want to have a drink cuz she was "tired" I left the hotel lobby somewhat abruptly. When I'm reflective I think I'm dodging a bullet. There are huge ups with her but very self involved and to get her to be good probably requires more firmness than I enjoy. Think right thing is to cut off contact. Suspect she will miss it. Problem is I will too.

12/01/2018 09:08 AM Larry → Jeffrey: I sent a note just asking her to txt when she was up cuz I had something brief to say to her. Didn't want to push cuz she takes her 930 presentation here very seriously. Better after her talk. Am I thanking her or being sorry re my being married. I think the former.

12/01/2018 09:11 AM Jeffrey → Larry: thanking her for fortitude in dealing with what has obvioulsy been a tough situation. and acknowlegin both how difficult it has been coupled with your mate insensitivty. and apologizing for not fully recogbnizing how difficult it has been

12/01/2018 10:29 AM Larry → Jeffrey: Game day at conference she was extremely good Smart Assertive and clear Gorgeous. I'm fucked.

12/01/2018 10:31 AM Jeffrey → Larry: well your debating tips obviously worked as ? youre fucked, was my expression inserted as one to remember

------
03/16/2019 03:08 PM Larry → Jeffrey: We talked on phone. Then "I can't talk later". Dint think I can talk tomorrow". I said what are you up to. She said "I'm busy". I said awfully coy u are. And then I said. Did u really rearrange the weekend we were going to be together because guy number 3 was coming" She said no his schedule changed after we changed our plans. I said ok I got to go call me when u feel like it. Tone was not of good feeling. I dint want to be in a gift giving competition while being the friend without benefits. Think time to just stay away for a while. If there is potential here she ll find way back. I think I'm too eager weak at this point. The Prada thing by someone else is natural. By me seems desperate. Had good sense not to send off a note. She must be very confused or maybe wants to cut me off but wants professional connection a lot and so holds to it. I think life as stand by in case she needs leverage against another guy sucks. But I get when I think about it stay cool.

03/16/2019 03:19 PM Jeffrey → Larry: shes smart. making you pay for past errors.. ignore the daddy im going to go out with the motorcycle guy, . you reacted well.. annoyed shows caring., no whining showed strentgh.

03/16/2019 03:57 PM Larry → Jeffrey: I'm really mad at the deception. Should I just wait for her to call? This guy different. Maybe married or old or something. I sense from body language she is really attracted but he is unsuitable as partner. I can hardly be possessive under circumstances but schedule changing because she gets a better offer is not acceptable. If I say this she will rage back about times I changed plans because of family and work constraints. She knew I was upset. I think significant chance she ll send note saying this may not be fair to you why Not take time off or that she will say this. In her way very tough. But nothing for now.