You are so pathetic.

I didn't change my Chinese name. Zoya Washington is my id and it is Russian.

I didn't 外嫁. My children are 100% pure blood.

I don't need to 贬低自我 because I am very happy with my life.  I don't understand where you get that conclusion.

As far as language perference, you can't learn English well enough to use it, it doesn't mean no Chinese can. Like most, you just don't have what it takes to learn.