You misread it

I just wanted to say it seems meaningless to let my mom come here. I didn't ask her to come to help us at all, let alone let her being a nanny. She offered to help us, so what help can it be afer all? All the chores in the house seem beyond her abilities. I have to toil by myself, plus playing an additional role sandwiched between her and my hu*****and.

It's a tight family that doesn't need outsider's interference. I just realized how difficult it could be to introduce my extended family in.

Whatever it is, I have to put up with this new situation.

P.S, I have been a true bilingural person so long that my inner thoughts always start from English, not Chinese. My mom's presense would be a slight stressor to my brain. And I don't know how the baby and I could cope with the confusion. My brain can't simply switch on and off between the two sides of English and Chinese usage in short intervals. Suddenly I have to deal with two adult persons who can't communicate to each other at all. It'll not make my life any easier.Just imagining it drives me nuts.