回复：他很有骨气，我为他感到骄傲！我只能说你很现实，不想说你很自私

我觉得他失去你并不可惜，因为你并不是真正的爱他。只是个人看法而已。 I would agree with you. I thought that if a similar thing happended to family back China, I would not hesitated a second to give up everything I had.

If there is anything I want to defense myself is that I think there is nothing wrong to make sure if I am ready to committee 100%--this is fair to him and me. For whatever reason, that conclusion does not come to me easily. Maybe because I am selfish, practical, or not loving him enough. I just know I need to be 100% sure of my decision now, and go for it without regrets.