回复：you will pay what you have gotten,nothing free

thanks for the advice.

I am not sure what you really meant. I think what I want from him is the happiness. He has made me happy by loving and caring about me. But I am not sure if I will be happy still in the future when his health situation starts to causing problems. Or if it is worth for me to pursue the happiness with him given my concerns.

I am very indepedent and I am not worried about finding someone to date or marry. I think I just dont wanna leave him for the fact that I love him and for the possible consequence of hurting his feeling.

I think it almost sounds like I wanted to leave but cant. I know sometimes I am too indecisive...anyways..even by writing those, i feel better. thanks.