就是一哭二闹三上吊的，你怎么办？

You probably should write your experiences.  Venting a little bit should be good for you. I realize now that I want to be healthy for my kid.  I don't want to become her burden.  Life is hard as it is.  I won't make it harder for her.
My dad used to hang my sister up and beat her when she was a kid.  My mother beat me up using a stick and the stick broke.  I was in high school already.  And i went to the best high school in the city.