Rolling in the deep shit

一阵酸痛伴着闹钟声从身体各处传递到大脑，第一个意识就是：还活着，忍不住咒骂一声真是XXX用进废退，刚几天没活动，搬两天箱子就成了这样。

这一天一天真是一种挣扎，我觉得就像一只蛆一样，天天Rolling in the deep shit……（WB链接） 

发个歌保留学籍，还得接着Roll

Rolling in the Deep

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go 'head and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and its bringing me out the dark
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love they leave me breathless, I can't help feeling
We could have had it all (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Baby I have no story to be told
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there 'cause mine sure won't be shared
The scars of your love remind me of us (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
The scars of your love they leave me breathless, I can't help feeling
We could have had it all (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could've had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
But you played it with a beating
Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turned my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow
we could've had it all
We could've had it all (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
It all, it all, it all, (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could've had it all (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep (tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside your hand (you're gonna wish you never had met me)
But you played it, you played it, you played it, you played it
To the beat
 

      从新年伊始就挣扎了，元旦假期过后，头等大事就卖房子，计划的春节回国之旅在房子上市的一周后，然后就是被疫情闹的差点回不来，返回航班取消，最终改定飞机提前结束假期，退票申请递交航空公司至今未收到退款。

      匆匆结束的上半场只是小小湿了一下裤脚，真正热闹的下半场开始了，全球pandemic, 加拿大全国紧急状态，安大略紧急状态，非essential行业关闭。我下一个房子Closing date, 4月1号, 我靠，亲爱的建商你还能更滑稽点吗？我要去银行面对面签mortgage怎么保持社交距离呀？我要与律师见面签文件，一买一卖两次，如何保持社交距离？ 家用电器送货（新房子，全空的）我都不想社交距离了，你们还能开门还能送货吗？ 搬家公司只要你们能来给我搬家让我拥抱你们都没问题了。  除了前面的essential更essential的是Internet, 上不了网这一个个的都会掉魂，新房子里可没有接好光纤呀。打电话给Rogers，回答会帮助解决，但技术员不能进屋。 huh…,不知道后面还有什么等着不？ 人人都在躲，我确偏向虎山行。

       同一个办公室同事回家隔离14天，因几天前参加一个 conference，与会者中有人会后检测出被感染COVID19， 第二天质量经理刚来不到一个小时突然拿上东西回家，嗓子不舒服。热闹一个接一个，我真想申请回家一走了之。给我个因COVID19被下岗。回家专心处理我自己的麻烦去。

       律师事务所来信可通过网络视频会议。收房之前的房屋检测PDI被要求不许到场，由建商委派检查人员代客户检查代写报告，如期而至的愚人节交接日期一切按部就班，电器商店重新选定了日期提前送货， 三个捂得严严实实的送货人员让人些许安心，我犹豫了一会儿，还是决定用商场的免费安装人员，又一次近距离与陌生的安装人员相处俩小时。 正在此时，Rogers 安装Internet服务的技术人员不期而至， 这一下子提前了3天，幸好我碰巧在，两个技术员解释不能进屋子但尽最大努力一次到位，否则就要把光纤临时甩在车库， 光纤顺利地通过电缆穿墙位置进入地下室， 技术员把光纤转换器交给我，让我自己进屋连接，Rogers的服务信号正常显示出来。我接下来就不用你们了，旧modem正用着，直接接上光纤转换器，我的wifi都不用重新设置了。 两人交换了眼神：这趟活儿倒挺容易。前后30分钟。

       到了搬家的前一天收到了搬家公司司机电话，抱歉啊我们要稍微晚两分钟， Whaaat???啥晚两分钟，不是明天吗？ 是今天啊。不对呀，我还没准备好，我赶紧回去查一下邮件，my gosh,我乌龙了，邮件里比我们口头上说的日期早一天，我楞没看。只注意报价了。电话商量没得选择，心一横，强行搬， 甩给我LP几个contractor级别的黑垃圾袋，凡是需要腾空的橱子抽屉，别仔细打包了，全赛垃圾袋，我自己以迅雷不及掩耳盗铃之势开始拆床架，当两辆搬家卡车6个搬家工人到达时我最后一个床架刚刚拆完。6个大小伙子，或者仗着年轻体健满不在乎什么病毒，或者视死如归，个个谈笑风生，无一戴口罩，事到临头，我也早把什么病毒忘在脑后，置死地而后生投入到视死如归的行列里了。直到最后一件东西卸进了新房子。 小伙子们的社交情绪丝毫没受这疫情影响，这房子太漂亮了，你可以好好enjoy了。 是的，如果没有这疫情我的确会的，这些日子我有没完没了的担心，比如律师不办公怎么办？ 电器商店关门怎么办，还有你们，万一你们也关门我怎么办？ I feel got stuck in deep shit!!!!   一团糟的开始的一天，被这样完美解决了， 他们走了，我却后怕了，这七八个人这么近距离在个小房子里近距离进进出出… ….汗ing…， 自从回来后，我需要不停的一个14天又一个14天地隔离呀。

两周前开始不再剃须，这是目前状态，决定一直把胡子留到疫情结束，到时候再发图报告结果。      

翻出照相机，掸了掸土，快不会用了，出不了门，只能对着窗台小花咔嚓一张