u should learn to appreciate

life, at least you got a strong hu*****and! don't compare the worst part of your life with the best part of the others, and by any chance if that person can switch status with your hu*****and or you, I'm positive he will be more than happy to hold PhDs, excellent papers, wait for Green card few more years... instead of delievering!

also, besides everything, in the end it's your hu*****and who suffer the most about your 情绪失控. try to behave, if your hu*****and is a great man, you have to be a great woman. otherwise he has more reason to 情绪失控!

best wishes!