抱抱！太不容易了，你是坚强的那一个，有办法度过难关的

You have moderate to severe  depression worsened by manopause..... Please seek medical treament immediately - taking anti-depressant under the supervision of your doctor is a must at this time. Don't give up if one medication is not working for you. There is always one out there for you. 

Take care and good luck!