摘自Reneé Good的一首诗：“圣经、古兰经和薄伽梵歌都像妈妈一样把长发滑到我耳后”
蕾妮·妮可·麦克林，美国（当代），是一位诗人，2020年曾在弗吉尼亚州老自治大学英语系攻读本科。2020年，她入选春季院长名单，并获得弗吉尼亚州诺福克老自治大学2020年美国诗人学院大学与学院诗歌奖。[DES-03/22]
麦克林，蕾妮·妮可
美国，（当代）
关于学习解剖胎猪
- 我想要回我的摇椅，
- 唯我论的日落，
- 以及海岸丛林的声音，是蝉的三音节和毛腿的五音步
- 蟑螂。
- 我曾向二手店捐赠圣经
- （用酸性喜马拉雅盐灯把它们捣碎在塑料垃圾袋里——
- 洗礼后的圣经，那些从街角从狂热分子的厚手中摘下的圣经，
- 被简化、易读、寄生的类型）：
- 记住高光度生物教科书图片中那种滑腻的橡胶味;他们烧掉了头发
- 在我鼻腔里，
- 还有盐和墨水，沾染在我的手掌上。
- 凌晨两点四十五分，我读着又重复
- 核糖体
- 内质——
- 乳酸
- 雄蕊
- 在鲍尔斯和斯泰森山拐角的IHOP剧院——
- 我不断重复和涂鸦，直到它找到了方向，停滞在一个我无法再指向的地方，也许
- 我的直觉——
- 也许在我的胰腺和大肠之间，是我灵魂的那条小溪。
- 它是我现在用来简化万物的尺子;硬边且从知识中分裂出来
- 曾经坐着，布贴着发烧的额头。
- 我能让它们都保持吗？这种善变的信仰和这门从背后嘲讽的大学科学
- 教室
- 现在我简直不敢相信——
- 圣经、古兰经和薄伽梵歌像妈妈一样把长发拨到耳后
- 习惯并从嘴里呼出“为惊奇留出空间”——
- 我所有的理解都只是从下巴流到胸部，总结如下：
- 生命只是
- 对卵子和精子
- 以及这两者相遇的地方
- 以及频率和表现
- 以及那里死去的东西。
蕾妮·妮可·麦克林。2020年美国诗人学会奖。弗吉尼亚州诺福克老自治大学。https://poets.org/。
Macklin, Renée Nicole
United States, (contemporary)
On Learning to Dissect Fetal Pigs
- i want back my rocking chairs,
- solipsist sunsets,
- & coastal jungle sounds that are tercets from cicadas and pentameter from the hairy legs of
- cockroaches.
- i’ve donated bibles to thrift stores
- (mashed them in plastic trash bags with an acidic himalayan salt lamp—
- the post-baptism bibles, the ones plucked from street corners from the meaty hands of zealots, the
- dumbed-down, easy-to-read, parasitic kind):
- remember more the slick rubber smell of high gloss biology textbook pictures; they burned the hairs
- inside my nostrils,
- & salt & ink that rubbed off on my palms.
- under clippings of the moon at two forty five AM I study&repeat
- ribosome
- endoplasmic—
- lactic acid
- stamen
- at the IHOP on the corner of powers and stetson hills—
- i repeated & scribbled until it picked its way & stagnated somewhere i can’t point to anymore, maybe
- my gut—
- maybe there in-between my pancreas & large intestine is the piddly brook of my soul.
- it’s the ruler by which i reduce all things now; hard-edged & splintering from knowledge that
- used to sit, a cloth against fevered forehead.
- can i let them both be? this fickle faith and this college science that heckles from the back of the
- classroom
- now i can’t believe—
- that the bible and qur’an and bhagavad gita are sliding long hairs behind my ear like mom
- used to & exhaling from their mouths “make room for wonder”—
- all my understanding dribbles down the chin onto the chest & is summarized as:
- life is merely
- to ovum and sperm
- and where those two meet
- and how often and how well
- and what dies there.
Renée Nicole Macklin. Academy of American Poets Prize 2020. Old Dominion University, Norfolk, VA. https://poets.org/.
About the Poet:
Renée Nicole Macklin, United States, (contemporary), is a poet, and in 2020 was an undergraduate in the English Department at Old Dominion University in Virginia. In 2020 she made Spring Dean’s List and was the winner of the 2020 Academy of American Poets, University & College Poetry Prize at Old Dominion University in Norfolk, VA. [DES-03/22]
