thanks for everyone's comment.

when i told my father about this, he was very upset.
he told me i just ruined my life in america.

of course i regret it now, but i want to know is my life in america really over? if i get fired from my current job, i deserve it.
but i want to know will this be on my file with the company, and when i look for my next job, will the background check firm be able to find out about this.

i am very shameful right now, and i am planning to go back to china and start a new life and career.