I haven't been to China for over 18 years

and I never plan to go over there again. There are many reasons for that. 

The most important reason is that for this person mentioned above or for me there's neither needs nor desire to go to China.  Food is the major reason some people are attracted to China, not me. I don't have any craving for foods.

Once you get off craving for the foods, the most intricate, personal connection to China is over.

 I don't want to see anyone there, and I'm very concerned about the political atmosphere.  What if there's no way back? 

Just thinking about the Chinese authorities and bureaucracy makes me fringe.  You never know what can happen. 

I have nightmares about living in China, seriously. I used to dream of being sentenced to death, and close to be executed. 

It's just so fearful to me, seeing so many people being killed every year when I was a child. It was brutal witnessing the

atrocities. Should everyone of those people deserve to be shot and killed and humiliated in public? I doubt it.

I've seen people got sentenced and executed for totally wrong reasons, for a brawl on the street or being a speculator. 

Someone got killed in a street fight, the perpetrator escaped, the one dumber youth, who was my neighbor, was caught.

He was executed at 18 years old. I don't want to see anyone being put to death that way. I don't want to revisit China.