外婆每天辛苦,要照顧四代人的吃喝。當年沒啥好吃的,但基本上還是頓頓白米飯。外婆自己種的有些新鮮蔬菜,她盡量做些花樣。那個年代,每人每月半斤豬肉,四兩菜油,人不得不勒緊褲帶。好大一個鍋,滴上几滴油,菜進鍋也滋啦一聲響。
國王在下大棋,做美夢,“解放全人類”,還嫌説得不來勁,加上“無產階級只有解放全人類,最後才能解放自己“。這裏邊的邏輯是什麽呢?世上就只有兩個階級,無產階級是窮階級;資產階級是富階級。窮人解放富人(把富人分了),窮比過去富,富比過去窮。而窮人是好大得一個數,歸根結底是大家一起窮。過去叫”造反有理“;現在叫管控財富。時代進步了。
外婆每天起的最早,幫我整理好書包,放好給我中午吃的飯,送我出門,囑咐我多小心。我當時不懂事,也不知道給外婆説聲謝謝。更不知道和外婆抱抱。誰説愛就不需要謝?愛是一種互動。因爲青春,我每天都很快樂,南方的水土氣候真的比北方強太多了。
我們一家五口在四個地方過活。我媽在陝西千陽;我和我爸在重慶;我姐在陝西合陽;我哥在陝西南鄭。是誰讓一個家四分五裂?是誰一天到晚吃齙撐喊叫“無產階級專政下繼續革命?人民知道,不敢說。我哥最瀟灑,沒有女生和他一起插隊。他哥倆好呀”鐵道游擊隊。扒飛車呀泡大妞,日後成了精神病。其實我哥是個聰明人。在一個胡毬弄的朝代,當個正常人太辛苦。
一九七0年是”文革四年“,潤之二十一年。威權王朝,拿名字叫年也不錯。比如康熙六十年;乾隆六十一年。福如東海,年比稀鬆。全國各地的”復課鬧革命“的時間不一樣。重慶武鬥打得熱閙,所以重慶的文化大革命的閙活的時間比西安長,復課比西安晚。三級合一級。我算向上跳了半級。復課和革命是兩碼事,但是耄就愛攪合,兩碼擱一塊合成一個事物,這樣可以“一分為二”。
班上的人都比我大一到三歲。小姐姐們都有胸脯了,我是豆芽菜,身高一米四八。他們中學比我上的多了半年。所以我的數學課有點跟不上。數學老師叫蘇維吉,人特別好。每個星期給我開兩個小時的小灶。期中過后我就跟上了同學們的進度。期終的時候我就是班上的前三了。當時中學就兩門課,數學和語文。語文光聽我爸成天嘮叨就夠了。我是一門心思學數學。
八月份,一個大太陽天,山坡對面我看見了我媽。那時我媽還不到四十,走山間小路已經有些讓人看著擔心。通訊不便,我媽給我和我爸連通知都沒有。中國發生了什麽?蘇聯不扔原子彈了?誰知道。
離開外婆土屋的時候,我特別難過,哭得稀里嘩啦。![丰子恺漫画如诗揭秘真正吸引其走进漫画世界的人_央博_央视网(cctv.com)](data:image/jpeg;base64,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八個月,七十嵗的外婆照顧我了八個月,連碗都沒有叫我洗過一囘。從來沒有聽到過外婆抱怨,連聲叫累都沒有。這就是愛。
窮人的孩子早當家,家裏的老小懂事晚。後來我經了很多事,也到過很多地方獨立生活。在外婆身邊的那些日子,個外地讓我懷念。(待續)
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