I can't fit myself into those pictures

and my three kids. I'm living a typical American life, as a working mom, there's nowhere to go but driving.

I like driving and spending money on mostly compulsive purchases. But buying five tickets to travel for 40 day?

No way!  We can't afford it.  The strains on money and time and childcare are insurmontable.

I can't take the risk of them getting sick abroad either.  What to do if something happens outside? 

At home we can go to bed when not feeling well. Out there in a foreign country, I have no idea. 

China is the least place I want to go. The least! It's not that the food isn't good, I'd miss my minivan

and my own home, my quiet city and the drive to the farmer's market. I can't live in the chaos anymore.

I like the life routine, the no surprise daily stuff. Getting older and getting complacent maybe.