另外

把时间花在研究中国问题，得不偿失。
因为那是backwards. 谁会去研究非洲部落的思想/习俗呢？极少一部分拿了政府补助的学者。

i could not stop thinkink about China like you, just because i was grew up there. i got to make it clear. now it is clear to me. so it is done. it passed away. but i know a lot of people like you would repeat my wondering.
so what? i help you just like help myself.