I regret most afterward was my child left at home alone, not my

My hu*****and was different, he thought I was worng in the beginning and needed to be responsibile for all consequences, so he made things worse by insisting not giving me the key and not thinking about the child at all. That irritated me and made me wild at that time.
I don't think I need to be shamed of anything, I was just out of my mind and need to learn to control myself better in the future.