You should talk to doctor

You have postpartum depression and need medication, it has nothing to do with your age.
I never want to go to work, totally enjoy being with my baby. So different from you. But my
husband kinda of wanting me to bring some income back, say, in the next 10 years.
When kids all reach school age, I'd go to the nearby community college to learn another trade
such as being a nurse or a dental hygienist. It' no use to cry for not being able to work.
I know all my past working expereince and college education are gonna be invalid after a long
gap of not working. My way to fix it is to start out with a new trade. Health care is the most
demanding area so check out something available there. Working isn't gonna be easier than staying
at home, nothing fits you if you're depressed.
So call the doctor.