Finally, I decided to leave because I can not work with him professionally and I am going crazy. There are also some work related reasons that I don’t like this place. My previous boss wanted me to go back. The best they can offer me is to match my current salary. The hour is at least 1/3 less and the culture over there is much better, so I will have a much better quality of life there.
I told my boss that I may leave. My boss was so panic and upset. He said to me “I beg you don’t leave”, then his face and eyes turned red. I think he was going to cry so I couldn’t even have eye contact with him. His reaction broke my heart.
He then went to his boss to give me a big raise to let me stay. I had no intention to ask more money at all. The salary raise is much more than I expected. After several days, I told them I would stay. It is not really because of money. I just can not leave him. This week, my everyday at work is same unhappy as before and it is even worse. Any small thing can piss me off so much. I didn’t get anything done because I keep thinking if I made the wrong decision. With this emotion piece in it, I seem can not make a right decision on my career and life. I don’t know if my boss already knew my feeling to him. This is not something that is difficult to figure out. He wanted me stay so badly just because he relies on me to do the work or something else? BTW, I am a good worker and he did rely on me a lot on the work side. I don’t think other place can pay that high so I may get pay cut if I leave now.